kegan

2011-11-16T12:03:00.003+08:00

It's been long i've been updated this dead blog, i should revived it since everyone thought my blog its been dead long ago. I should be updating about my life since i got nothing better to do, for your fyi, i'm enlisting to national service, they send me a notice that i need to attend 8 weeks of physical training phase due to my napfa have been valid for 1 year already. i regretted that i had wasted my life for 1 year, if i listen to my parents in the first place i would not end up like how i am now. How times fly right? When i was in primary school, my mum also tell me, time flies. see where am i now? i'm enlisting to army, that's very soon, sadly i will bald too. like me share with you guys what i had faced today, i went to toa payoh to take my napfa test, my 5 stations result was great, only on thing that pulled me all the way down, i'm feeling devastated. because of 2.4km i got the timing of 14.30min and i failed. i have to pass so i would not have to serve for extra 2 more months in army, if i pass, i would be only serving for 1 year 10 months. I failed, but it doesn't matter, try again. 23rd november is last chance. My baby girl always been there supporting me, i felt it. and yeah, i'm still together with her, we are still strong in relationship. both of us is getting mature. we together since we're 16, but now we're 18. for 2 years. we grew so much, we faced so much things together. persistent is the only thing i can describe. i love her, eventually, is a lot. 2 years 7months and we're still going strong. i bet she thought i wouldn't update my blog anymore.

My baby, I would be glad if you're reading this. We had gone through so much, quarrels, bad times, unhappy times with each other. but don't underestimate our love between us, is more than what you think. i know this few months you got to tolerate me and my questions, and keep telling me not to be paranoid. i understand, you would think i don't trust you, hey! not true okay? i always trust you, always have been loving you, missing you. i'm praying hard, dreaming hard, to see us get married one day. Being together with you, you taught me how to be mature, you changed me, my life. even though you cannot see it. but to me, i see there's a big difference when the 1st day being together with you compare to NOW. thanks baby. you changed me to be a better person. you gave me many chances. but i still broke it. thats when i thought, am i the stupidest person? asking myself, why am i losing someone so valuable. (: you just have to know one thing,

I Always Love You.

Kuperman!

2010-02-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

I know you're tired, quite tired. I know i made you frustrated and don't seems to understand you at times, i will work hard on that. I don't mean to irritate you at all and i hope you do understand. What we had gone through in the past, i hope we had learned our mistakes. When you said that you do your best to change, i believe. I said i will change for you too. Things in my mind, i wanted to tell you, but is difficult for me to express it out. Hope you give me time to explain how i feel. I want to see the best in you, i know i'm different to you compared to the time when we're first together, i will bring back part of the past in the future. Things have been going rough between the both of us, but i believe we're strong enough to make it through any boulders we encountered, we had faced. I know this relationship is strong enough to go on. Please don't get weak. I know you have been accommodating this relationship often, but i doing my part too. But, i need you to show me more. I know is hard for you and i'm really sorry. I know i have been pressuring you when you're already doing what you should do, but i need you to show me more. 325 days we have been together is still not enough. there's no limit in our relationship, and you once told me we can last, i really believe in that. I know i have been making you answering my question none stop, but it's the only thing that can relieve me, and i apologize for that.. even though we're difficult to communicate, but we seems happy with each other right?.. sigh, hope you understand what i'm trying to say now..

2010-01-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

no one understands,

2010-01-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

i'm not stupid to know,
i had gone true experienced,
i find it weird this few days,
just don't make the crystal so clear,
if you know that you're like this,
there's always a limit,
people can control their own character,
my heart is not a stone,
i have feelings and you should know that,
i have been standing strong,
even the strongest man in this world, still fall,
imagine, im not that strong.

2010-01-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

we both made mistakes
and something that we wished we never made
but we will be okay if we just stay together.

baby, now i'm telling you, i'm lousy in telling, lousy in explaining, lousy to make you understand about what's on my mind, but i will keep holding on as long as it's gonna take, until you realize.

2010-01-02T21:05:00.003+08:00

i had a bad start, 2010.

yeah.. i agreed, i'm a fucked up son. useless too. you're working so freaking hard and i'm there spending off your money. and you told me not to do it again and try to save up. but i still spending. if a father says a son useless. means, useless. there's no other saying. and i'm so agree with you. thanks. sometimes, when i do need support no was there.. i felt empty.

2009-12-17T13:20:00.002+08:00

but then again too few to mention..

life isn't always turn out your way. you could be miserable at times. it is depend how much you want it, if you want it that much. You would always forgive. And look forward to the time when you're going to be satisfied and happy. Don't let it waste when you done so much. If you believe this will work, don't give up. Cause is hard to find.

2009-12-02T17:21:00.004+08:00

why must you

i can't expect much from you..
i will wait how long you will be there, lying.
i'm not blind.
i'm not stupid enough to be a fool.
i'm just waiting for the right time.
i will see how far you will go.

let's see.. let's wait.. alright?

2009-11-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

looking through your eyes, i knew i'm not the one anymore.

as day goes by,
time will reveals your true-self, and
i'm already seeing it.

2009-11-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i post. been busy working lately, after work felt so shag. reached home feel like falling on my bed, but i can't resist to spent my day sleeping, seems like waste of time. and now, i don't feel like working at all. i want to spent my holiday without stress or tiredness. looking forward to the camp, chalets, graduation. not looking forward to work.

A moment of time just seems impossible to me.. and i feel this ship is sinking.

2009-10-20T09:44:00.002+08:00

Happy 7th Month(:

all the best for the upcoming months of ours, last long dearest.
even though some things aren't the same anymore, but i believe, our love will always be the same.

love you much♥

2009-10-18T10:39:00.005+08:00

Last Long..

i will keep on breathing.
never will i give up..
even though is gonna be a tough time for both of us..
but i believe, we can make it through.
even those pain have come, still, i will tolerate.
even though tears are pouring down, i will try to hold up..
it is heart breaking, to have a situation like this. but it is worth it.
my wish now is.. i wish, things will not interrupt our relationship.. hope things will be better..
i know we are strong enough to handle..
even though i don't really know what's happening, don't know why suddenly we are at risk..
it's gonna be hard, it's gonna long.
but i will wait.
but, if there's smallest chance for us to see each other, please take that chance..
cause i do not know when it gonna be the next time i'm gonna see you..
my love for you will never fade, as i love you truely..
i hope yours will be the same..
don't ever make the love decrease..
why things turn out this way..
sigh..

2009-10-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

23'rd nov'09 is waiting for me..

N level finally over, can live my life freely.
graduating(:
time passes so fast that i can vivid the past like yesterday(:
there's a lot of activities that i'm looking forward to them.
can't wait.

i can see you, but yet, you're so blur...

it is just sooner or later,
it just the matter of time..
the solution is,
you got to wait.

there's no use hiding.
let me tell you this first.

2009-10-10T17:02:00.002+08:00

you can't fight the tears which they are coming.

how much more time.. sigh

cause, i don't think they understand, should i do something?..

should i do that then you will realize how i feel?..

2009-10-06T21:10:00.004+08:00

200th

all you got to do is believe, have confidence, i won't give up and i hope you won't too. i know a young couple lasting isn't easy at all. but you got to tell yourself.. you gonna hold it so tight, that you wouldn't even feel like giving up. for them to last, they always forgive each other, no matter how hard they are going through, and no matter what are they facing on, they wouldn't give up on each other. that is how they last. this is what i know. you have to know yourself, if you wouldn't ever leave me.

even though i use to forget a lot of things, but the only thin i won't forget is not to leave you. not because for the sake of this relationship . is because i know i will love you till the end when you leave me apart.

hey dearest, happy 200th day(: 165 days after then is our first. hope you enjoyed with me all this while. all the best for the up coming days of ours. cheers and smiles..

2009-09-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

whenever i hear your says, you seems to choose the neglects.

you're showing me the different things from what you had said.

there's something i really want to say, but i do not know how to seriously. cause i felt something really different, whenever i looked at you, you seems to be another person each time.. you're showing me, the false you..

why am i feeling, everybody is taking over me..

why am i feeling, i can't control myself anymore..

it doesn't matter what others had said, cause i really believe, We can... this time, this moment.

today, exam in the hall. was so god damn warm. can't even concentrate..

4 more days, till N.

let's see the future ; Dad's phrase.

2009-09-22T23:14:00.002+08:00

you think, i'm so full of it, i think i'm just fed up. you think i can be so arrogant, but i'm just trying to keep my head up. you think, i'm procrastinating, i think i'm taking my time. you just don't know when to let up, you think you're so much better. i think it ain't healthy for me to judge you by your flaws, so i will just put aside.

2009-09-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

i think my ankle loves me(: WHY MUST YOU SPRAINED ME IN THIS TYPE OF TIMING!

relax~ i'm not gonna see a English and Chinese paper for the next 6 or 7 months.

2009-09-08T11:30:00.007+08:00

don't judge the book by it's cover.

2009-09-03T19:48:00.000+08:00

am i forgetting my father advice..

questions that had been heard, there's a purpose.
every droplets, there's a reason.
things that i said, there's still more.
it's been so long.
never had once for someone.

holding tight is not a problem, but i'm afraid, will i get back the same feeling..
will i get twice the feeling..

sigh,

2009-09-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

i don't know why.

i feel so disappointed.
utterly.

2009-08-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

i think i'm starting to get over it already. i guess i'm starting to get my dad's advice.
when is a can, means can.
when comes no, means cannot.
so just treat it this way for now.
cause there's a lot of way ahead of me now.
there's no use to be paranoid over such stuff.
why not let fate decide,
try everything i can now.
try my best to hang on.
when situation comes to be bad, let it be.
i won't let it affects me no more,
i will bear it in mind now and forever.

im doing whatever i can now, but please. don't let me think the other way round
cause, i'm losing myself already.

2009-08-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

enough, you don't have to say that to prove to me. you may think what you really see, what am i really am. i've seen your effort. i got something to say to you, it's too late now and still i got something to say, i'm sorry that i treated you that way, time is gone and the moment had passed, there no one fault but mine. you've moved on, and i still dont give a damm.

trying to figure out what's wrong. stuck with the words that can't be spout out.

i'm ready to be another person.

2009-08-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

happy 5th baby. 153days.

2009-08-13T17:46:00.000+08:00

finally, i accomplished my prelim and d & t, they are over. unlike last time, almost everyday after school have to go back to the hot and dusty room after my lesson or exams, do those rough work. now is to wait for the idiotic theory which was so difficult during prelim. hope N wasn't like that. and for the very first time i didn't brought back my heavy file back home. at least i can relax a little, for now, can't wait for N to come.

you're the one who told me that education was essential and the first priority,as what you had shown me. you're changed, eventually, is a lot. your behavior and languages that you used was very abominable, it disgust me. usually, you wasn't like this. i can just say that you're carried away by them.

don't be affected by what others had said. it's useless.

just be a outspoken person, be frank with me.

2009-08-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

change, need to change, and always that way.

thanks for showing your true self.

hiding things doesn't solve anything.

2009-08-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

sometimes, some people get me wrong, when something i said or done.
sometimes, you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run.
now i truely realise, some people dont wanna compromise.
well, i saw them with my own eyes, spreading those lies yeah?
well i'm so tired, things you say, you're driving me away.
don't listen the games they play.
i thought you realise.
i'm not like them.
you should've been more wise..

it's time to change, i mean it.

2009-08-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

happy birthday singapore..

sometimes i wonder, am i spoiled by my parents? cause, they have been living in their lifes where things they can't get during their childhood even though they persuade and tried to convince their parents. but now, i felt anything that i want they buy for me, they give me. i know they dont want me to have their that kind of life cause is not nice, but i guess their over doing it.they pampered me. i just feel, sometimes i can't control myself either. i was thinking, am i lucky to be born at this type of timing?

2009-08-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

You're the baddest little thing that i ever seen(:

damn it. i, just broke my artefact. nice.
frustrated, more and more.
today is the deadline, even better.

2009-08-06T18:17:00.004+08:00

lols, thanks for coming all the way up to accompany me:D

must get that habit that you're like this.
i'm really seeing it.

2009-08-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

i hope you know what are you trying to show.
i hope you know how to control yourself.
i will not show until you show me what you're trying to do is right.
you haven't complete clear my doubts, but i put it aside.

2009-08-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

as i can't see the future, but somehow i'm feeling it.

time to decide the next choice(:

mind my words, one day, i will aim either one of those days, and i will shoot it someday with abrupt. and most probably, it's time to recharge(: see it carefully.

2009-07-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

wait, and it will be over, very soon.

if you're able to make me smile, then i will seriously consider..

2009-07-28T20:14:00.001+08:00

9 days didn't post, cause my blogger seems to have technical problems, even now. can't resize or change the font and i don't even know what the hell font is this=.= past few days have been going golfing, is like 4 of us addicted playing already, last time is mah-jong, then change to Ten mile junction LAN, after that is swimming tennis, then now is golf. The worse thing about golf is have to carry the god damn heavy bag, then none of them want to carry, lazy arseholes.

Chinese oral was scary~ i keep pausing my reading cause i don't know how to read many words! cannot recognise the words, chim chim one=.= but i think conversation was alright cause the examiners keep smiling, same goes to me. lol

this few days kinda stress over D&t, so way behind time and i'm still slacking and relaxing. plus, prelims are like next week. argh. When life can be easier..

hold on, it gonna be over soon.

2009-07-19T13:06:00.002+08:00

Watched harry potter yesterday, not really very nice, to me. i still prefer the previous movie of harry potter. don't even understand the story line this time. is more to comedy.

argh, why hives cannot heal? is like it have been 4 days.

prelims coming. all the best(:

never i want to see you fall

2009-07-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday dearest! 16 years old. old already huh, may all your wishes come true!

♥

2009-06-29T12:48:00.001+08:00

Happy 101 dalmations puppies:D

♥

2009-06-28T07:32:00.002+08:00

is changing the only way?

everything that you says, are right. everytime i made a mistake, i knew, it is so disappointing. when i can't change myself at time when you gave me so much time. it is so hurting. when you're there concerning, but i'm not there looking forward on to it. i don't understand myself, why. i kept continue to bring back the past when i say i won't and don't, even promise. i want me myself to change so much. but why. i'm there being stuck here when you're there helping me. it is so upset, when you're not rushing me for this relationship. but, why am i rushing. i dont want to keep repeating the past where we said we will move on. and in the end it appear suddenly right infront of us. i dont want you not to trust me as i say i won't do it but it appear again as your trust will eventually fade away for me and hard to believe me next time. i know what i'm doing but it is after i do or say. why do i always ask you questions neither of us dislike. i don't really know myself well enough. never i want you to feel guilty for me. but my mind is just telling me, do for the best in this very worthy love of ours. whenever problems in us appear. i felt so useless where i can't solve it which i say i can. i'm partly blaming myself and another part is where i said i promise you i whenever there's a problem, i will bring it to the lowest. and i understand problems caused by two person. but when problems come, we can't be equal anymore. faults between us is more to one of us. it is always me who started it first from asking questions which you don't like to hear. yes. problems are easy to solve. but why am i eventually be so paranoid of such stuff. i did made the right choice to be with you. and i'm truely happy for everything that you have done for me. behind me where i didn't knew about it. you really made a very good gf where you disagree. but. you're really are. even though some sentences of yours hurts me that much. but i don't even care, i continue to love you and not disappointed in you. both of us made mistakes and no one is perfect. but you're someone. who is reaching to the extend where is really prefect for me. maybe to you is hard to believe now. but i'm saying the truth and fact. i'm always there beside you, encouraging you, caring you, loving you and having faith in. even though we had a hard time pushing the boulder away from our route. i always tell you to stay strong, to remind you to keep on the right track. but not by decreasing your feeling down. i'm always here okay. i'm always here for you. as i really do love you, so much..

baby. smile? please?

2009-06-22T13:41:00.003+08:00

it doesn't matter, when and how. the matter, lies on you.
i don't know myself what am i suppose to do.

plan. (might not work)

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datttbabtpi

am i so stress? that frustrated over small stuff? maybe..
is my brain working? i guess.. not.
promises that are promised, will be there.

even though i do not know anything, yet. but my feeling is already telling me something.

you, still don't know who i really am. deep inside me.

i never really been the type to be superstitious. and i wouldn't say that i'm super religious. but lately i've been praying and hoping and wishing. is anyone out there willing to listen. i'm kind of worried about the world that we live in.

2009-06-15T18:32:00.003+08:00

today's day isn't what i expected but, had a wonderful time with you. laughter can be heard from you.

and, im sorry to hear that. but, this "person" had someone else, the "person" just want to be your good friend, i think you really should let go, is the best for you.. k?

2009-06-08T19:36:00.003+08:00

found this picture from no where, suddenly appear. i look like, "ELVIS", cool eh..
hmm, what should i talk about. Oh, let's comment about today, hmm my day was. SUAY ZAI or you can say, UNLUCKY. why suay and unlucky leh? okay, let me tell you. First; During D&T, i accidentally cut my hand. nice one. Second; Sand my artefact, sand until my finger, now got a beauitful blister. Third; Walk Walk Walk after release from school, accidentally kicked on to a cup of ice cream on the floor, kena my white pants, guess what, is chocolate. gosh, like kena shit la.. Lastly; sigh...

look forward, past is past. so.. smile?

2009-06-07T18:22:00.002+08:00

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, to find a better day

Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something i've said or done, sometimes you feel there is no fun, but now i truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise. well, i saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies.

too many sleepless nights.
i should be more wise.

2009-06-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

having heartaches all the time, when i see you. i'm really sorry.. for letting you down all the time, i feel so upset because i can't do anything, but being good. sigh. tears will always be down down to see you unhappy and pain. i'm disappointed, myself. truely.

2009-05-31T23:28:00.004+08:00

Can’t count on you most of all when i really need it. it’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings. the more i try, the more i’m starting to see it. this can’t work anymore, than you believe it.. i just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is. was i there too much, did i move too fast, i couldn’t see it? all these promises are probably how you deal with it..

it was too big to push aside.

2009-05-29T10:14:00.002+08:00

as time passes by, keeping things within myself, anger in me never flare up as i tolerate and when the day reaches to the right time, burst to tears..

2009-05-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

first, i fucking hate you.
second, it's been a long time since i cried so hard.
third, i want to hit you but i can't.
fourth, i want to hit you either, but i can't.
fifth, i'm gonna give you no respect anymore.

2009-05-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

throwing your face.
useless me.

2009-05-24T14:30:00.003+08:00

baby, i wonder why sometimes we fall apart with tiny matters, we are great being together and every single day i hope our problems should not be this way and settle it easy, i ever do is trying to be all that i can be, all the time everybody say that you and me are great with each other. we made alot of our own promises. as i what i said to you just now that we would be together through out every single thing. i know i have lot's of negative character in me but im only trying to be a better guy, but you never noticed that. i know my misunderstanding towards you might be hard for you, but please tolerate whenever its occur. you may think you yourself is hard for me, but i feel that when i love you, everything is going to be fine between the both of us if you try to cooperate with me and try to tolerate my nonsense too.

so many wounds that can't heal up,

2009-05-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

seriously, i had a great day today, overall. all because of you my baby. you made my day bright, up and real happy, your plans are great. even though i'm so moody just now, i was wrong, cause i might not understand what you're feeling just now. but i know i was in the mistake all along, i'm sorry to let you down and irritate you. but one thing we do really knows, no matter what happens, we will stay strong with and for each other right? i always love you, no matter what.. don't change a thing, between us okay? i love you. i do. yes i do..

2009-05-20T19:16:00.002+08:00

Happy 61 days(: looking forward to those coming months ahead of us. all the best.

nowadays, why do i always feel unwell when time reaches 7pm? weird. and today's comment for the weather. burnin hot hot hot~ many tiny droplets on me body. kept complaining during lesson. still sat under the stupid fan, feels like hair dryer blowing me, gosh.

everything feels good when i'm with you.

2009-05-17T09:48:00.003+08:00

I never meant to be like this,

2009-05-16T01:38:00.005+08:00

there's one thing i can't tolerate myself, i think alot, why am i being so paraniod. why.. please stop thinking so much..

wtf kegan, stop all this nonsense

sigh

just dry your eyes, don't you cry.

2009-05-15T23:11:00.005+08:00

guess i passed with flying colours, acceptable marks(:

didn't post for 5 days, cause lazy or maybe busy playing restaurant city, LOL. got abit addicted. Is just too bored at home, nothing to do. rotting all day long. anyway, went zoo on 13th May 09. Perfect and right wheather on that day. I did enjoy okay, i really do(: WOOT! finished exams, can relax but prelim(dying) coming, sad huh. Then "N" level(dead) coming too. yawn and lots of boredem is towards me, how?!

no.. smile okay?(: i know you will and you can.. just put things aside and just give me a bright smile:D is that okay?

I know we've been through hard times and the struggles
And i just wanna tell you i love you..

mummy(:

2009-05-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day.

Oh, today was great. get the full set clothing for syf, for me i spent like 600 plus plus, and my dad help me pay 800 plus plus either. i'm broke plus got hole in my wallet. really. and i never see my mum smile and laugh for a long long time.. i'm happy to see her like that then hearing her nag nag and NAG.

first temperature 38.1, second tempersature 38.2, for 30 - 45 mins later. increase till 38.6, am i getting hotter? LOL. i can feel my eyes are burning already. and i'm sweating like a hippo! omgosh how? SWINE FLU AH. ): wait and die only lo.

one word covers all, "sighs."

2009-05-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

When you first gave me a chance, i knew that i will never forget this moment in time just a word and you took away my heart. i never knew that my life would change, i never knew that i will feel this way. Baby, believed me i'm right to be with you, i won't try to fight this feelings inside i that can't hide, i love you and that's all i know, i am sure. each time that you're not with me, i always miss you, thinking of you. i have fallen for you everyday and i will never let go cause i need you, you're the light in my daily route. the things in my heart, the things that i say are things that are true all the way. i promise you i will stay if you tell me you will be with me too, and say yes you will. we're together now, i always believe that we will be looking towards a future that is real far as the way my life is being brighten up whenever you're with me, i love you not only for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you.

i know...

I LOVE YOU BABY

2009-05-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO IS THIS, NOT ME HOR!

went to eat with my friend at limbang mac. both malay, and talk in malay for the whole conversation. then i down there listen them talking in malay, wth? im not malay la can. BORED la. seriously i super sian nowadays. seriously bored. nothing to do in life. like everything i done before le.

life isn't what i expected.

2009-05-06T21:43:00.004+08:00

went to keat hong shopping centre to eat with Aloysius, went to see him cut his hair, asked me how to cut his hair, want me to tell the hair dresser how to cut his, LOL. i don't even know what style match him. after cutting, he keep acting to me his HANDSOME-LY hair. keep acting la. haha.. he said "i know you jealous my hair very nice right" wth. haha. enjoyed with him though.

who can make me fall in love? only you can baby.

2009-05-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

Now i think about damn what a life i had, most of that shit look back just laugh, some shit still look back get sad.

That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today, no regrets i'm blessed to say the old me is gone no more..

2009-05-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

disappoint some moment.

2009-05-04T11:01:00.009+08:00

suddenly got that feel to post this..

used to be close, used to be talk alot when we were lower secondary.

used to be brother, but now? yes or no?.. are you still making up stories like last time? or you're changed now.

when we were sec 3. super jiao face. and his acting cute -.-

slack during mac, long ago. guessed you don't remember. jiao bin.

and the main part in this post is, chinese stall, pork oil, not hala, you still go buy and eat. serious.

last week at yew tee.

Maths paper one, done.

Roses by the dozen.

don't think about anything now. don't be stress, frustrated.

2009-05-02T21:32:00.001+08:00

call me your sugar(:

2009-05-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BRITHDAY COUS~

~ sweet 22. wow. you're old but I'm still giving you a treat? I thought is the other way round? anyway, are you touched?! everything i do for you, is like worth? took train to seng kang?! mygosh, I sit till my pi gu pain pain la. reached there already so like finally~. I gave up on train, so I planned to sit cab for the whole day, plan plan plan.. planned to go cine leisure to watch movie, "Horsemen" kinda disgusting, is about killing killing and killing. ate alot of granded and expensive foods^^ and surprisingly, I still got money:D decided to go sentosa and play all the attractions there, the worst thing is, took cab to the habourfront, wanted to sit cable car there, and the QUEUE was god damn long, okay nevermind. got any other way, went vivo to sit the whatever train to sentosa, mg, the QUEUE is twice as long as the cable car =.= damn it, I learnt something yesterday, on labour day, shouldn't go out. somemore is holiday friday. just to see you smile makes me happy. so can see you enjoy the treat alot(: and you're welcome! SADLY, there's no picture):

your speech cannot brainwash me. cause I know the how it goes. at first, I'm so confused. but the best way is to say no. even thought "it" is going very bad, but i don't really care much. someone will explain to me clearly.

you yes you, good that you gave up, cause is not a good choice. seriously, the person is not good from the way i look at him/her, look at the person post, how do you felt all this while? the person said once him/she got like you before, nonsense right? this call you're played right?.. i told you from the start, that's why i hesitate. but do what you want to do. really, i got faith in you that you can do what you want to do. smile..

2009-04-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

omgosh girl, kissable lips.

baby, you're so specially special today. I won't elaborate further, you're speical to me.

i got that rock and roll that future flow.

hey you, yes you. you know who and what i'm talking about, if you know what i'm talking about so is referring to you. you better not fool my friend, eventually his my brother, you better not fool his feeling, his studies got affected because of you, can't you be considerate for his feelings? everybody knew what are you last time. just playing around, can't get serious. my impression on you now is you're changed, no longer the last time you anymore and it's a good thing, changed to be better. you better not disappoint me cause i won't give face anymore. me and someone really dislike you being close to him cause we afraid he will be played like what you did to the rest. and you know he likes you, better not hurt him and affect his studies again. if not me and someone will give no chance and face. we do concern for him. serious.

2009-04-26T08:12:00.000+08:00

Your lips are sugar to me baby, so don't worry and kiss me.

YEAH! finally reached home, gosh. took mrt for 2 hours from city hall to choa chu kang!? totally not worth my arse. killing me, my butt hurts, who can give me a massage? anyway, overrall I did enjoyed myself with my brother, Nigel. talked, laughed, shared and kept the conversation going for the whole damn night. played billard at fushion whatever you called that place. after playing, decided to go cine *pleasure*(wrong spelling) to watch movie, 17 AGAIN(: but the show starts at 4.25am and we were at there like 2am?!!? late huh, because there's no other show left and that is the earliest of all movies, so we went to play pool, enjoyment. and finally show starts, woot! it's a nice show, romantic, sweet, and.. JOKE, kinda comedy funny, the show keeps me, nigel and even the whole crowd who were watching laughing out loud like no body business, like you're gonna feed the bananas to the hungry monkies. Movied and it's time to go home. and i was like dragging my shoes as if i hate them. actually because I'm so extreamly tired, like zombie. I was like bathing with my eyes closed. half asleep~ hmmm, my comment for yesterday and this early morning is, FUN(:

Oh, Nigel tooked a picture of me. super unglam~ but nevermind, i don't mind sharing some retards photo of mine to you people. Warning: Don't laugh, comment and don't even think about what you're thinking, just see will do(: enjoy.

yeah, that's me alright. my god, my face look so toot. by referring to the toot face of mine, some of you people confirm say, " now then you know ah?!" confirm=.= but at least i'm much more skinner than him :D

okay people i'm off to bed~

Baby, i'm always here loving you as always. <3

2009-04-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

times fly, realised people changed, so different from past to now.
what will happen in the future?
i wish i know what are they thinking.
i hope i know.
but i can't.

chinese paper, over. roughly know what the passage are trying to say. always got confident to fail but surprisingly first time in my life i think i'm gonna pass..

2009-04-20T23:37:00.001+08:00

Happy 1st Annivesary(:

2009-04-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

do you have to leave?...
why is it so suddenly?...
leave me crying?...
can you do that?...
is it the end?...
why,

2009-04-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say for myself. sry.

2009-04-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day, i did enjoyed alot today. you said so many funny stuff, made me laughed none stop.. i think because of the way you talk or your actions. Anyway, very interesting either(: and you, your comments are weird, no wonder you keep looking at me.. and your comments make me feel weird too.. and thanks for that gift, i do really appreciate it alot.. is like i'm the only one you gave throughout everyone..why? is like, unexpected? but i'm glad i received because i want it too(: Lols.. i hope everyday was like that..

2009-04-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

wa sad, i injured my toe):!

2009-04-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

12th april 2009 ; "kb!" i'm gonna remember that dearest.

2009-04-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

i can feel there's something, but you just don't want to say.
don't ever restrict yourself, from what you want to say.
when i look at you, i know you're thinking about something, but you refuse to say.

tell me the truth all the time, don't because it will make me feel bad or hurt then you hide the truth away from me and tell me nothing.

2009-04-09T15:39:00.001+08:00

concentrate and time is all i need.

there's you guiding me through, i wouldn't be afraid.

i would never have known of such happiness if it wasn't for you.

do i really love you? yes i do.

2009-03-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

My blog is real dead *again* -.- trying to revive it. Nowadays, kept doing the same old thing all over again, is like so bored when everyday my life repeated the same old routine. Somemore, never go training for like 5-8 days cause of the lower secondary common test, pilot pen and the school running event or something? I'm rotting at home la please. Went to Zheng Hua Community Centre today evening, Yong Keng asked me to go with him to play badminton, starting he told me " we play 7 to 9 and somemore the court don't need to book, just play on the spot can already". By the time i reached there, is around 8pm. then there's a few adults booked the court and at 8pm have to clear the court, wth -.- i brought my heavy badminton gears there for nothing and have to travel far distance back home. Kinda "Suay" nowadays. I lost my I.C for the past 3 days, but luckly luck was on my side. It was my cousin found my I.C, do luck really exsist? or is it just coincidence? Sigh, during march holiday i don't really have free time for me to enjoy, have to go back school for oral, training, I.P, D&T coursework, friend birthday, go sentosa and a few more, my time is like damn tight la can..

Sentences and every words i said, meant something.

Is not really for fun, laughter, peace and joy.

But i really do mean it.

Words that have been said really wants you to understand what it means.

I hope you understand.

(I understand that i've asked you quite a few times. But you didn't give me a specific answer. No matter what and how, i will always respect your decision regardless the answer you give me. And i really hope for all the best..really...)

2008-12-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

One Sentence For the Chalet: I Enjoyed It Very Much(:

As per normal what i did in chalet, nothing much but very enjoyable. never sleep for 2 days. stayed awake during the chalet(: I did : Drink, Played Escape(Boring, Rainbow and Inverter Maintence), Cycling, Cards, Bowling, Pool, Movie(Twilight, Kinda suckish), Bbq, Arcade, Ate Macdonal, Kfc, Pastamania, Japanese Restaurant and many many more..took taxi back home.. and i'm very tired right now.

Im not hesitating, i just dont wanna rush(:

2008-12-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

Back From Hell

Back to blogging, it was dead long ago, i know it's not a living thing or whatsoever just DEAD. cause I'M LAZY. don't blame me, blame me character.

Went amoz house, richie came along too, we played cards and played betting with wine. I'm the one who always, so called lose? and amoz poured for me like full glass? normally wine is like poured only half right? no choice have to drink. super spicy wine.. don't know what's the wine called.. but it's duper hard to swallow.. burn your nose and lungs, woot! guess what. i puked 7 times :D during the night. planned to go home, but my head giving me pains, so stayed over. richie said he first time see my face kum pua red. my eyes were like... smaller then before? My eyes like very very de small already.. this maybe disgusting to you, amoz passed me a pail. and i feel the pail 1/4? imagine how alot of Vomits in there. ewwwwwww. okay okay not talk about it anymore. wa the next morning my stomach growl damn loud? roar* =.= okay being lame. damn hungry okay.. let's stop here..

Having tropical life..

2008-09-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

hah [: changed skin, changed url for nothing. didn't even use my blog nowadays, i'm Lazy. Yesterday when newton for dinner. with Edwin, Firman, Aloysius, and and edwin's boyfriend. ordered damn alot foods luh. insane. ordered sting ray, squid? you chay kuey spell? cockles*? for the 3 of us? cause malay can't share with us, so they order others.. quite enjoyable though, sadly.didn't take any pictures ):

hah, i don't even know why i am so attentive in class today.

2 days time, EOY
good luck everyone [:

is not that i hate you. the feeling is just not there to know you, to see you.. i don't like it, i'm sorry. hope you understand.

just to warn you brother, i don't know what his gonna do. but it's gonna be real bad (: trust me

You gotta scream until there's nothing left

2008-09-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

HOHO today got friendly in school, played with Hillgrove Secondary.. saw my old friend since primary school. I vs-ed him, omg. i can't even recognise him at all. suddenly he called my name in court [: super shocking luh can. missed him, i didn't even know his a badminton player. nowadays, super stressing and tired.. so so straining, i can even sleep during a match? terrible. went pasar-malam after training with firman, edwin, iskandar and don.. actually wanna buy food from "PASAR-MALAM" end up went "MAC' -.- in the end stomachaches ): arghhh.. somemore this thursday having friendly again at *dunmen* Sec spell?

you've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate..

2008-09-14T11:09:00.000+08:00

Changed link (: Changed Skin (: Back to blogging (:

since june 20 till now i didn't blog, kinda lazy. Busy with stuff,

Played lot's of tournament this few days. Played cheers, community club tournament. giving me body aches, next week still got friendly to others school. yesterday woke up at 6 , went tournament start at 7am played till 7pm, 12hrs. my muscles are swelling ): i vs-ed richie in tournament, i lose out. (: cause in my mind. i not really possible to go near semi - finals, richie's stamina is better than mine. so i let him through and don't wanna give him much pressure,

hoho i found one picture super jiao, i stepping Iskandar face along the road side.

hmm, eoy coming real fast this time. time flies real fast, need to concentrate on studies (: no more playing games.

sometimes i feel there is no fun ):

Summer ended,Winter started,It got colder,When we parted ..

2008-06-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

Hey Future Love, i didn’t know how to start this letter Dear, or hello, couldn’t decide which sound better. i went for the informal because i’m not trying to impress try to make it laid back so there’s no need to stress. i know I don’t know your name, but someday i hope we’ll meet on the street and no longer be alone. sometimes i gaze up at the stars and imagine how it will be, where will it happen? will you just turn and look at me? will we discover the meaning of “love at first sight?”

chalet-ed,

day 1

went tournament at arena, around boon lay area. darn i can't stand coach being right there shouting through my mind, how should i play. i'm trying to concentrate right there and he just kept on shouting, felt like calling him next time please shut the fuck up. even uziel was being irritated and fustrated with him. i'm trying to play my right game, played doubles with uziel. i'm just not use to the court and the surrounding and i'm trying to get use of the place, damn. kept shouting. i will show him, i will train freaking hard, so next time he won't say a single word at me. went home after my match, cause edwin waiting for me, going chalet. there's a next match i don't even bother to go, it's better to enjoy myself there, took mrt all the way till downtowneast, SUPER far. like took around 2 hours to reach there. reached, after that rented bike, cycles for hours, wore skinny and cycle, wth super tight. hahah.. just rent a bike over night cost$20?! wth ex luh, after that nigel and jun kai came over, took taxi here. 30 going 40 -.- went fishing, around the beach, caught lot's of different kind of fishes, those wierd wierd looks, hmmm then we went and slept.

day 2

nigel left to make I.C early in the morning, after that we went to return our bike, we went fishing again, no luck at all. no fish. after went suntanning, god get sunburnnnn (: super painful, edwin say i look like malay, like real. swim along the beaches, and fishing. damn funny (: caught one flatfish, super ugly. aloysius still down there whack the fish like a volleyball -.- poor thing sia the fish, after decided to go escape but it's kinda late already, so we didn't go, ate bbq, played pool, then after we went to swim again. our skin are tearing apart, then after that we went to find xiao gou, they wanna go redhouse, me and glenndon want to go but aloy afraid, then in the end we took taxi there, hahah. cost $4+ wthh lah, then after we went back, sleep super tired. done alot of activities.

day 3

woke up around 9.30, very early cause glenndon dad wanna check out of the chalet so we thought about going to escape cause we got free ticket, so we went till 3.30, sat all rides. as you guys know what is in escape, aloysius puked. he can't take those rides, hahaha. weakkk =p took taxi back cause aloysius really can't take it, so yeah... we went back home, time fly so fast, i was expecting the chalet to come but it's over and school gonna be reopen soon. hmmm...

life have never been sweeter, so as for love.

2008-06-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

Band Concert (:

the day before concert, went out to marinasquare to shop. can't remember much things but i only knew i went with edwin, glenndon and nigel, after the whole shopping, glenndon decided to stay at my house, cause it's kinda late, around 2am at night. played DJ Max at home with glenndon, its fun but kinda tired though.. slept ZzZ

Woke up early in the morning 8 + cause freaking aloysius kept on calling, cause his super excited about the band concert, went glenndon house after i prepared my things, meet aloysius and jeremy. went penni around 1pm?! wth super early please, cause aloysius wanna but skinny. wth in the end went there then he decided not to buy. sian waste our time, went victoria around 3. and we waited there like 4 hours. i expected the band concert to be fantastic, but actually is okay okay only.. after the whole band concert, we went to eat makansutra (: aloysius treat woot, order damn alot of things, and freaking hot, spicy and filling. went back home in the end.

15th june, having wee kim wee tournament, don't have that mind set to play, but coach want me to play doubles (: finally. i'm hoping for him to say that, gerald played first single, thoven and uziel played first doubles, and finally samuel played second single, won 3-2 cause we won 3 matches, so don't need to play (:

after that went jurong hq to claim my handphone back but in the end didn't so tmr hq again with edwin i guess, i will stop here (: smile everyone.

life have never been sweeter, so as for love.

2008-06-13T08:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO NIGEL (:

went causeway with Glenndon and Aloysius, help them choose shirt what to where for the band concert, Aloysius is like shy till. really got nothing to say luhh, just to choose his shirt need 2 person to follow him inside, unexplainable shy, totally lah.

after that all of the sudden, nigel called see if we wanna go marinasquare with him to shop, cause his birthday today so we said okay. went there by mrt, reach around 7PM -.- kinda late. played pool with glenndon and edwin. woot! i won both of them, AGAIN. hahaha.. while me and glenndon playing, edwin and nigel getting bored so they went to play bowling, i don't find it fun, just throw a heavy ball. bought a small cheese cake for nigel, from mac cafe. there's another group of girls celebrating too, glenndon -.- tmd haahha, he go ask the girls THAT WE DON'T EVEN KNOW THEM,

Glenndon: excuse me, can i borrow your candle? for my friend there. one only,

Girl: orh orh okay, no problem.

Glenndon: Thanks

WE: WTF HE NOT PAI SEH UHH?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!

hahaha.. kinda funny if you were there listening the conversation. (:

I really want to give her everything she deserves, i used to share my love with you.

2008-06-10T17:52:00.000+08:00

hmm, i guess what i said was right. played 3rd single, coach was there shoutin at me, shout shout shout. i'm really blanked out in court. i'm not on form today, but i still try my best to fight on, cause i'm the decider. giving me damn alot of pressure, i can't concentrate at all.. but in the end i won, he still not happy, won 3-2. phew almost, freaking nervous..

ate burger king after the whole tournament, damn, i'm hungry. everyone was.. don't really know what i ate till i feel my stomach went wrong, gosh. stomachache! i suffered from jurong west till choa chua kang, still need to walk home "buay ta han lah" pain like siao. arghhh

and now finally reached home(:

The love that she used to give me, it can't be found anymore

2008-06-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

catched "kung fu panda" movie, so funny and nice. you guys must watch! (:

when with Edwin, Glenndon and Aloysius.

argh.. tmr wee kim wee's tournament, i felt so not ready luh. later coach shout ): sian.. and i guess the overseas trip for badminton is around Dec, looking forward to tht day. gonna enjoy.

I really want to give her everything she deserves.

2008-06-06T23:05:00.001+08:00

hmm i still remember those times we brothers are like so close? treat each other like a small or big brothers, but now. we're like being torned apart, no longer close anymore..

haha, look at me i'm tired falling asleep during chalet. (:

and you, when i look at this photo. thinking those times we had together, kept on making me laugh none stop. but now, i feel that we're strangers. are we? for me, i don't think so. cause i got this feeling, one day this brothership gonna get back together like the past. i hope so it will happen..

smile, theres nothing to be sad about. (:

slacked with glenndon and edwin at sunshine place, played pool with them. kinda fun though, long time never touch the cue stick, played damn lousy now. but i still won edwin 2 games! cool. but glenn win me ): he power lah, after that went aloysius house downstairs play soccer, i improve on my kicking! last time dont even know how to kick, don't really know why i can kick till the ball hit my FACE, everybody laughing at me. oh gosh lols, embarrassing ZzZ. after the slacks, went back home. took bus back with edwin, he keep nagging me he wanna take lrt, but i pulled him to the bus stop, sitting down kept asking me

edwin: kegan can take lrt, take lrt, take lrt

me: .. no, shut up lahhh

he like keep saying "take lrt 100 times," even we're on the bus. freaking irritating, haha but i force him to take bus. =p gonna pause here ^^

you're driving me crazy

crazly in love [c=#DCB6F1]

2008-06-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

JOKE

Anger management?

Husband: 'When I get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?

'Wife: 'I clean the toilet.'

Husband: 'How does that help?'

Wife: 'I use your toothbrush .'

Meaning of WIFE

Husband asks, 'Do you know the meaning of WIFE? It means 'Without Information Fighting Everytime'!

'Wife replies, 'No, it means 'With Idiot For Ever'!!!'

Losing all your friends

Man comes home and finds his wife with his friend in bed.

He shoots his friend and kills him.

Wife says 'If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends.'

Brother wanted

A small boy wrote to Santa Claus,'send me a brother'....

Santa wrote back, 'SEND ME YOUR MOTHER'....

hahaha, it's funny (: enjoy

2008-06-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

i miss you ):

slacked with rachel at my house downstairs, she need a listening ear so just accompany her. listening her nag is kinda funny, since primary 1 i know her, till know she didn't change abit. gosh she's still a kid to me, hahaha.. she kept nagging where's her bf cause her bf never contact her for hours, lols. slacked for 3 hours, my butt numb, pain.

it's end here (:

you used to be with me in my dreams, things won't be the same anymore..

2008-06-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

I dream about you all the time,

woot! went zoo, long time never been there already. y'know what? is super bored. nothing much, just seeing those animal sleeping?! went with Edwin, Glenddon, Abdul, Jeremy, Sok Meng and... aloysius,

we passed one baboon place. remind me of something, i said this

me: eh, i realise something.

edwin: what?

me: you know baboon butt is damn super red right?

edwin: yeah?

me: isn't it look like sok meng face when she's laughing out loud? super red lo,

sok meng: ... wa lao ...

me: there! see her face! super red again! shy shy lahh,

everybody was laughing, if you are there it's really funny the way we talk.
and wth? Glenddon go zoo play psp all the way, played DJMAX. we keep stopping him but he won't listen,

oh yeah, my new shoe made my feet got blisters, wth. the shoe have not season yet, super painful. walked till my skin tear, then blood came out. no choice took taxi home. freaking pain..

went jeremy house after having our dinner at choa chu kang stadium, went his house watched "the promises". bored.. yawn~ finish posting,don't feel like posting anymore

sadly didn't take any picture there,

i'm trying to get back to you, why did i failing to be with you?

2008-06-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

Sean Kingston - Me Love

Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.

[Verse 1]See the first time me looking at your eyesme be tell you want a guy like mewe use to ave gud times on da eveningme and you chilling on da beachWe use to kiss and caress an chess megirl it feels so sweetden one day you movenow im feelin kinda bluecause we had to see you leaveI feel like im drownin in da oceansomebody come and take me away

[Chorus]Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.

[Verse 2]Now im sittin in a chair wit no one hereand im feelin all alonethinkin to myself likedamn why my baby up and goneits like im missin her and i know shes missin meits been two years an a half in july will make it three.I feel like im drownin in da oceansomebody come and take me away

[Chorus]Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.

[Bridge]Why you leave me, wuh why you leave mebaby tell me, beh baby tell mewhy you leave me, wuh why you leave mewhy you leave meWhy you leave me, wuh why you leave mebaby tell me, beh baby tell mewhy you leave me, wuh why you leave mewhy you leave meI feel like im drownin in da oceansomebody come and take me away

[Chorus]Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Uh uh uh uh oh oohwhy'd you have to go-ohaway from homeme love.Why you leave me, wuh why you leave mebaby tell me beh baby tell mewhy you leave me, wuh why you leave me

I'm spending all of these days putting my heart back together, i'm seriously hurt i got nothing to say to you anymore,

i had enough, i gave you chances. i can't take no more! enough of rubbish, things you said. total bullshit, i treat you that someone i need most, you give me this. you gonna lose more, you lost one, still not afraid? i told you i won't even leave you alone, but you still can't listen. feel like giving up on you man, i have plans, i don't want you to waste my time and yours, you told me this,

"Kegan , please i really don't wanna lose this "B_________P" so can you please give me one last chance and this time i will really treasure it, please? can? i really wanna treasure it..."

when i see this, i felt fucking shit. i felt that it's useless to carry on, but i felt hurt too. please i does have feelings, i tried. "someone" is right, it's useless to carry on. that's why the person left you, don't you feel hurt?! fuck i am for you, please think... please? i don't wanna end this. that's why i told you that sentence, i know you will be "a____" i not even treasure this, i even treasure you, think please? i did so much things, but you think what i had done is negative, it's bullshyt to you, man.. why you keep forgetting things?! sigh, let's make things better tmr okay? smile (:

feels like no one know's who i really am..

2008-06-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

I ENJOYED TODAY(:

yay! finally i got to go out with my family. my dad decided to stay with us cause his like working every single second, he missed us so he wants to bring us out (: went vivo. bought shoes from ALDO, cost quite a bomb. cost around 80+ my goddd, bought lot's of things. food sister treat (: love her, time fly luhh, one week of june holidays is gone, fast uh.

wth if you guys plan can plan properly? as in. change the plan 3 times, keep telling me wanna go this friday, then wanna go on next tuesday. still not enough, wanna change till next thursday?! wth, i got plans too okay. don't keep changing lehhh, fix on the right time.

don't keep changing your loves one, not a good idea trust me (:

i'm tired of waiting, (:

2008-05-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i here to blog again. wee kim wee cup is coming round 9 days, i feel so not prepared for the tournament luh, i think i even playing single. wth, my stamina dropped like siao luh please.. left 3 more trainings,

hmmm. my brothers aree planning to go zoo or night safari, next tuesday, it's been 3 years i've been there? and for night safari it's been 15 years. lols, never been there before. sua ku luhhh i know,

damn it can... my whole body aching like crazy, none stop pains. training so tough luh, 3 sets bunny 3 sets lunches< don't know how to spell but pronouns are alike, 3 sets pushups 3 sets situp and 3 sets superman. feel like tearing my leg off..

lols, i'm a monster. lot's of people say i eat alot, before training i ate ( chicken rice add chicken add roasted meat one mo0re plate of rice, imagine the food is how tall.. surprisingly i finished it all, uziel was shocked why i ate so much.. ahahaha, but wth during training i can't run in the end, too full.i eat so much but i don't know why i can't get any fatter, i'm 59kg onlyy...

ahhhhhhhh, no longer cabal. now is maplestory (: argh. addicted, level 175 and 141 (: i chionged. fast right,

i don't wanna waste another day and fail to be with you, i'm not gonna waste. and i know it's killing me inside me, and you need to know everything it's gonna be up hold.. smile girl, (:

2008-05-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

Changed blogskin again, kinda pissed with the other skin cause it look vulgur. everytime look at my own blog is like a person pointing middle finger at me. i don't feel good, lols.

yesterday went lavender do I.C first thought in my mind, "huh.. there surely alot of people, confirm wait till half an hour plus". but when i reached there, no people at all.. quiet peace, it takes me 2 min to do I.C kinda fast, went with Glenddon, Edwin and Firman. after the whole I.C thing, went bugis, ate Kfc. while eating suddenly rained freaking heavily, made me and glen shirt totally wet cause we wanna go cathay watch movie, so need mrt. Watched "Man Of Honour" or "Made Of Honour" don't know which one but either one. i guess this june holidays gonna suck, nothing to do. keep on having training..

nvm i gonna stop here,

be patient, i'm on my way.

2008-05-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

i felt that my blog is real dead last couple of days, didn't post quite a while cause busy or lazy.

don't feel like blogging anymore,

one more thing. ALOYSIUS YOU SUCK.

2008-05-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

I try to make my way to you but still i feel so lost but i don't know what else i can do...this time all i want is you,

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility.
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me.

yesterday went aloysius house to play, watched some dvd. boring even jeremy agrees with me, like being jailed up. stayed till kinda late already, called my parents if i can stay at aloysius house. my parents just say okay, but for jeremy parents, really need to beg them to let him stay.. omg, without jeremy in the house is like super boring luh please, no laughter. after yesterday so is today, went home early in the morning. me and jeremy planned to go out again, but everybody like so lazy. and the freaking weather make my head so heavy, spinning my mind around. argh, somemore aloysius bugggg me go swmming, i'm already so tired luh.. okay nvm, i think i will post later, my head hurts...

to tell the truth you know ive been hurting all along, you're the first and last thing on my mind..

2008-05-17T18:22:00.000+08:00

1)At what age do you wish to get married?
22-24

2) Who is more important to you? Friends or Girl/Boyfriend ?
both

3) Who is the person you trust most ?
my brothers and girlfriend

4) Do you think you have enough confidence ?
yes,

5) If you can have a dream to come true , what would it be ?
no very sure?

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain ?
i believe rainbow appear when they are together with rain (:

7) What is your goal for this year ?
her to love me, and my studies to get As

8) Do you believe in eternity love ?
yes, truely (:

9) Have you broken someone's heart that she/he tried to commit sucide ?
lols, hmm let say there's someone.

10) What feeling do you love most ?
being with her and look at her eyes (:

11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ?
hmm being mature, understanding, kind and lovable maybe?

12) List out 5 best friends of yours
Edwin
Nigel
Glenndon
Jeremy
Aloysius

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
yes "double-duh"

14) Who do you love?
Brothers, Family and that girl that i'm looking for

15) What do you think is th most important thing in your life ?
Family,Brothers, girlfriend and musics

16) Who cares for you the most ?
My Brother's,Friends and Family

17) Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words
Edwin.

18) If your mum and boy/girlfriend fell into th river, who would you save ?
confused

19) If time were to rewind , when will you wan it to be ?
no need to rewind, i'm happy being this way

20) Do you love yourself ?
yeah,

Instructions : Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.

me too, same as edwin. LAZY

argh, training so tough today. footwork, i'm dying in the court luh..

why does every moment have to be so hard, sigh

know what, i needa open my eyes next time. i'm just to confused to carry on like this,

2008-05-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

june holidays coming, no plans. but kinda happy though, no school. can relax at home, but there's trainin. aww man, wee kim wee's cup tournament for badminton coming real soon. gotta train hard this time. no slacking,

hmm. i'm a free man, lively guy. no longer in. but out, my god brother told me mature things around for the future. what will happen when i'm in, he really cleared my mind this time, i felt freedom. i felt nothing will happen to me in the future, it's been a hard time.. a really hard time to think, wheather if i wanna out or not. but i make up my mind this time. i wanna to change, to be better enough. no use when i'm still inside, make me feel terrible. but i'm okay now, there's nothing in me but me myself and my only brothers, i want them to change better too. i hope they can treat me better,

nigel called me suddenly when i reached home, said wanna find his lover. so, thought of it. got lots of free time, so must as well go with him then staying at home and rot. so went with him, he don't even know where is she. wth. bombed me i thought he knew, so nvm i go with him . along the mrt, he decided to go visit his grandfather in alexandra hospital, is like all those time is just waiting for his grandfather -.- but it's okay. worth the time being with him cause seldom go out with him. me and him got stomach painss aches, haha.. funny, we are there in the hospital nagging that we got stomachaches, after the whole visit. went orhard to find tony (: chat chat for awhile then went bugis find his lover, FINALLY (: so we went there have our dinner, ate noodles. the whole retaurant no space like we waited for half an hour more to find 2 damn sits. after the whole trip, went my god brother house to talk (: talked alot of things that really go inside my mind. glad i opened my mind. grats me. okay i had a great time with my brothers today (: smile bros, love you guys.

i'm a renewed guy.

2008-05-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

i felt so awfully sick now.. my body are really aching like someone tearing my muscles apart, argh. interclass, our class played captain's ball today. whoa like shit lah they play, must as well don't play. they lost 0-3, 1-5 wth.. i don't feel like going to school tmr, i wanna take a rest.

just had training today, super stranning. i really want wanna improve my stamina, i felt so lousy, wanna train harder. our juniors getting stronger each training, played singles with one of my sec 1 junior, almost win me. but i still thrash him (: but his kinda strong for a SEC 1,

i think i gonna sleep early today. don't really feels so good today, tmr soccer. GOOD LUCK TO OUR BOYS (: edwin firman abdul nusrul and aloysius, play well tmr.

i will stop breathing when i don't see you anymore.

i'm really sorry to leave you, i know you have been helping me last time. when i'm sad you're there comforting me. when we were sec 1 and 2s, i'm barely remembered most of the time we spent together. go out together, once you told me this today. "sigh why you leave, uziel came in then you leave. it's bored without you with us" i torned apart and felt a strong guilt. is not that i wanna leave you guys, just that i'm not really capable with you guys, i'm being with other brothers cause i want more brothers' created feelings, sigh. i'm really sorry to leave you guys, training i always will be with you right? (: smile.

gonna sleep nights,

2008-05-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

hey living things,

just changed my blog skins, kinda plain luh. next time improve on my blog.

got back our test paper, it was a heart attack, i flunk my subjects please.. my chinese! the worse of all, hate chinese words i can't even understand a word. okay not all but most of them, once i speak chinese people can like laugh out loud cause my saliva will like fly? luckily got 2As for CPA and D&T. other subjects got B or below. really gonna study hard this time, no more cabal eventually i quitted or seldom play already. eoy is next, gonna study HARD.

training resumed kinda tired stranning. crams all over, i hope there's someone help me massage. argh can't stop those pains, darn luhhh! no trip during holidays. BORED ): i miss those time in KL,

don't really feel like going to school nowdays cause we do not have any lessons at all. just sit in class you look at me i look at you, super bored.

i told you how i felt,

my heart are getting warmer within 8 days.

2008-05-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

, omg. i really high today. sooo high! went town with emilia, edwin and firman. GOD, firman is darn of a joker, within 5 mins i can laugh till my eyes come out tears luhhh, watched "what happened in vegas" romance and hell damn lot's of laughing, you guys should watch it too, edwin and emilia sit beside me and i'm in the middle, like i'm the great wall of china, they kept threwing popcorns at each other, GUESS WHAT. every single popcorn kena my face, hmmm we watched at lido, saw Tony working (: glad to see him, after watching went far east to eat KFC, brought $100 left 25 -.- wth, spent so much luhh, argh. i can just tell you guys i'm super happy today, went home after the whole. walked home with emilia and firman, we walked, talked and laughed. super high i can tell you (: edwin super gay luh, like wanna gay with me like that hahaha, keep touching me. YUCKS

feelings are appearing when i looked at you.

couple more days to go, within my life i'm waiting for you.

2008-05-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

yes! oh yes! exams are finally over. suffering from those toturing days. june holidays are coming, oh man. tmr gonna start training, confirm play like beginners. my bone are already rust.

argh! i really hate my damn laptop. i wanna change i can't even sign in to msn, can't even download a thing. keep having errors,

needa plan what am i gonna do in june holidays, gotta enjoy it. most of the days should be having trainings, yawn~ and i felt that my posting are really getting boreddd.. like no life at all,

trying to figure out this life,

13 more days to go,